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music, etc. 03:32
I'll go deaf Listening to Music, etc. addictions to cope with loneliness, etc. I'm too afraid to die On my own, own my own I'll go deaf listening to Music, etc. I'll drown myself in gin Depression, etc. I'm too afraid to kill myself That doesn't mean I feel alive I'll go deaf Music, etc. Addictions to cope with Loneliness, etc. I don't have any friends I'm all alone, alone Depression, etc. I'll drown myself in gin ADD, etc. I can't get anything done Gender dysphoria I don't know who I've become Music, etc. I'm done Depression, etc. I punch myself in the jaw ADD, etc. Overwhelmed I withdraw Gender dysphoria Am I a boy or a girl Music, etc. Addictions to cope with Depression, ADD, Loneliness Gender dysphoria Depression, ADD, Loneliness I don't know who I've become I'm done
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I'm always so tired I never go outside I'm stuck in place Stuck with Amphetamine Daydreams What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm stuck inside but can't see What the fuck is going on with me Reaching out but I'm in pieces Can't make up my mind You can tell I'm terrified I don't like my name but I don't wanna disappoint my parents Amphetamine Daydreams I don't want to stay alive You know I don't want to die I'm always so tired You know I'm afraid to die What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm stuck inside but can't see Amphetamine daydreams Amphetamine daydreams Amphetamine Daydreams
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American flags on your fencepost You don't know what you stand for Anymore, anymore Cigarette hanging from your lips, unlit This day's on repeat in my head, but I just want you Back in my bed Razor blades and chapstick on my nightstand I don't know what I am doing I am alone I know you probably don't like the sound of my voice But hear me out I have a lot to say What did you want me say? Back on that autumn day You had already made up your mind Is it 'cause I ran away? Back when I saw you laid with some guy in our bed That's when I decided I am better off dead Better off dead God forbid anyone see me like this I don't want to be known for How insane I am Razor blades and chapstick on my nightstand I don't know what I am doing I am alone Empty diet coke cans and wasted time Old ripped vans and I couldn't think of a rhyme Razor blades and chapstick Wish I could go back in time I don't like the sound of my voice either But I'm still singing because it helps me What did you want me say? Back on that autumn day You had already made up your mind Is it 'cause I ran away? Back when I saw you laid with some guy in our bed That's when I decided I am better off dead Better off dead Fresh diet coke and a tidied room Brand new pair of vans and I don't think I'm doomed Razor blades and chapstick Throw away the razor blades
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Cigarettes lit on train tracks Cigar burns on cold skin Cigarettes lit on train tracks The smell of smoke is on our clothes We drove through the night Side by side, please don't end your life Please don't End your life We have a complicated history The engine's running, sit with me Don't know where we're going we will see The future is a mystery The engine's running run away with me Become who you always wanted to be Don't know where we're going we will see Grab the swisher sweets and hennesy Cigarettes lit on train tracks Cigar burns on cold skin Cigarettes lit on train tracks The smell of smoke is on our clothes We drove through the night Side by side, through the night Through the night Side by side Through the night Side by side The future is a mystery The engine's running run away with me Become who you always wanted to be Don't know where we're going we will see
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9am [e] 02:51
I'm falling out of love I'm drowning in self pity I'm so fucking bored Everything is fine I guess I'm so fucking empty Swallow all the pills in the medicine cabinet I'm so fucking empty Swallow all the pills in the medicine cabinet I'm so fucking bored Of falling out of love I'm so fucking worthless Drowning in self pity I'm so fucking bored (I'm so fucking bored, so fucking empty, so fucking worthless) Everything is fine I guess (so fucking bored, so fucking empty, I'm done) Teen suicide is the second highest cause of death Teen suicide I miss my friends We sat by the pond high out of our minds I thought you were finally happy You left more and more often Looking for acid, coke, and a state of ecstasy Teen suicide is the second highest cause of death Teen suicide I miss my friends (Miss my friends)
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I need you by my side Nighttime suburbs Home alone again Foggy street lights An aura to remember Home alone again Where are you Foggy streetlights Cover me in dew The nighttime suburbs clear my head Fog covers my eyes and helps me Forget Wish you were here Need you by my side Nighttime suburbs Clear my head Nighttime suburbs Clear my head
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Faint Sirens 03:15
Snow flakes drift by Falling, falling Cars drive by us Driving, falling I'm falling down Snow flakes drift by Falling, falling Cars drive by us Driving, falling I'm falling down
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4am [e] 02:10
I don't know what I feel anymore What are you living for I feel so alone again Alone again Wide awake and I can't sleep It's four A.M. again You're not here again I don't know if the jokes are jokes anymore On my knees begging for no more, no more I don't know what I feel anymore What are you living for I feel so alone again Alone again (I'm sick of this shit) Alone again Wide awake and I can't sleep It's four A.M. again You're not here again I don't know if the jokes are jokes anymore On my deeds begging for no more, no more No more
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Final Form 03:25
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I don't know if I'm pretending To be who I am for attention I've never been this alone before No one know who I really am Should I come out? Risk it all? Should I tell you? You might let me fall I'll fall Risk it all You won't call me back When I need you Oh I need you I'll fall I don't know if I'm pretending To be who I am for attention All I know is that Singing along to your favorite song I'm happy I've never been this alone before No one know who I really am Should I come out? Risk it all? Should I tell you? You might let me fall You might let me fall You won't call me back When I need you I will fall You will call I won't be there I need you Oh I need you The most Should I tell you? You might let me fall Let me fall I need you Should I come out? Risk it all? Should I tell you? You might let me fall
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The Forest 04:18
Never wake up on time Can't get myself out of bed There was something soft in me We've killed and it's rotting Bury me in the forest I don't want to Wake up (up) Wake up (up) Used to be a romantic You ripped that part of me To pieces Don't go back to our old apartment complex Don't wanna be reminded Bury me in the forest I don't wanna wake up Bury me in the forest I don't want to Wake up (up) Wake up (up) Used to be a romantic You ripped that part of me To pieces Bury me in the forest Bury me with the moss Bury me in the forest Bury me In the forest

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